I went in on Thursday to start my first round of the next chemo drug, Cytoxin. It feels pretty much the same as the other stuff I was on. The appointment went great, but my emotions caught up with me as I sat in the chemo room, thinking "I just had a baby, and I have cancer!" I needed a night away from it all, so when I got home I asked Mom if she could take over the kids while I left. I drove over to Germantown and shopped at Saddle Creek. There was a store clerk at one of the shops that came up to me and said, "Are you on Chemo?" (I guess the hat tipped her off!) I said yes, I have stage two breast cancer. She was full of energy and said, "Oh, honey, I had it eight years ago and let me tell you -- you're gonna be fine!" She briefly told me about her experience and then she went on to tell me about the store sales going on! It's funny - I think I really needed that. Someone to sympathize and yet move on and not dwell on it. I had a good time shopping and then Craig took me out for a nice dinner that night.
Craig's parents came up for the weekend. Tolan will be blessed at church on Sunday.
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Blast those emotions! Sometimes it would be nice to be numb wouldn't it. But then other times I know we need all those feelings. It's got to be doubley hard with your hormones heading out of pregnancy. I still feel like mine are trying to normalize (whatever normal is!!!) I'm so glad you got a night away and met the sales clerk of hope! You will be fine and we love you and we're still praying for you and your little family! Tell Tolan hi from Max. I think they were friends in heaven. They knew that someday they would be related to the fabulous couple of Alana and Abe. :)
Oh, honey, you are so strong. I love you.
Hey, Cheri. Hang in there-you are so strong and wonderful. It must be difficult to be going through pregnancy hormones and the emotions of dealing with cancer. Just know that we all love you and are praying for you, and that Heavenly Father is strengthening you. I'm so glad you have so many friends and family helping you. I love you and think about you constantly.
Love,
Jaylyn
The Lord is truly watching out over you my sweet friend. It is natural to have those feelings, and I am so glad that thru others we can find comfort. I remember being pregnant with Sophia (my 4th) and being told that she would possibly have Down Syndrome. I went thru months of ultrasounds and tests. I was so overwhelmed. I prayed a ton and often times the comfort came theu others, but the scriptures were my biggest source of comfort. On days that I was really struggling The scriptures were there for me. We were really comforted and knew all will be awell. I just wanted her to be born without any extra complications. We wanted our baby to be well and the testing to stop. A day before I was going to have the AMNIO test done, I felt uneasy. I didn't feel right about taking it. This scripture came up D&C 6:16..."Yea, I tell thee, that thou mayest know that there is none else save God that knowest thy thoughts and the intents of thy hear". Then a couple of hours later my OBGYN called and told me that she was cancelling my AMNIO. That was such a great esperience and I knew that the Lord knew my thoughts and intents of my heart. I love you! You are doing great. You are such a great example of strength and faith to me. Thank you!
Francys
I wish I could say I know what you're going through, but I don't. The one thing I do know is that you continue to amaze me.
Love ya, Nicole
Just know that you still have a team full of people praying for you daily! You amaze us all!
I was sharing your experience with a patient the other day (no names mentioned), and right after that, the hygienist in the other room said, "I know who you are talking about!" It wasn't you, but she has a friend who had the same situation - pregnant with the 4th child, diagnosed during pregnancy, went through procedures and chemo before the baby was born, etc. The baby is now four and everyone is well and healthy. I was so excited to hear that. We sure do love you and continue to pray for all of you.
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